What a week! Yesterday I had the day off (yay Juneteenth! Hope you celebrated by putting funds into black businesses hands!) It really wasn’t much of a day off though because I had a new computer delivery and packed in 2 doctor visit and a lunch playdate with my kiddo. So, let’s get into the doctor visit and how I’m trying to better myself quickly.

The first doctor appointment was a routine two week post-op follow-up. Everything looks good, which is great. I talked to him about my goal of needing to lose 80 pounds before the end of the year to get my knee replacement surgery. I was honest detailing the struggles I faced since getting my surgery now that my stomach capacity was opened up to full. I found out that if I did want to get a sleeve surgery done, I would have to wait six weeks (So literally the first of December) to get that done to let my midsection heal. That wasn’t really the answer I was looking for! He did hook me up with an “obesity doctor” who could help me prescribe medication. I agreed to it, because anything helps, right?

After a fun lunch date with my kiddo where I had a great grilled chicken salad (and balanced it by stealing a few of his fries and a sip or two of his milkshake – hey it had been a very low calorie input day!) it was off to my primary care doctor to discuss phentermine. She was concerned about phentermine being the same as adderall heart-wise for me, so she was reluctant to prescribe it. We put our heads together and brainstormed a plan. Wellbutrin for the ADHD, a medicine for reflux (in case that was what was happening with my weird tummy issues) and an oral GLP-1 to see if it helps. I voiced some concerns because my dad had been on Wellbutrin for assistance quitting smoking, and it made him go pretty nuts. He left his wife, moved in with me, just went 10000% unhinged. So we’re going to start a low-single release version, and have the people in my life watching me just to prevent that from happening. I’ll go pick all of that up after work today.

I’m going to keep on keeping on for right now. It’s rough to be in the mindset that I’m in right now feeling helpless and hopeless. I know it’s fleeting and once everything calms down I’ll be on the other side of this and happier. But right now? Ya girl is struggling. I’m glad I have this outlet to express my worries, fears, and struggles because it’s hard out here for a pimp right now.